Forced To Separate

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I have been working the same job for five years; it has never really been what I wanted to do with my life.  I have met many people there who I love and who love me but the nature of the work is fairly negative as it involves a Casino: a place I feel must be negative because of its very purpose. 

Recently, I have been forced to work an evening shift which has separated me from my family and church; two things which have become very important to me over the past couple of years during my spiritual quest.  The shift change came about because of something I wanted, not knowing what the consequences would be for me, I made an affirmation which turned the workplace more positive for all but turned my personal life upside down.

The were a couple of girls working there whose behavior had become a distraction at the very least and bullying at the very worst.  With one of the girls I had tried everything including praying for her and making an outright appeal to her to make peace and make work a better situation for all of us.  Everything I tried failed until one day I said to one of my coworkers: "You know that girl is so mean, so nasty and so vengeful that I cannot even believe she is real.  So, I'm going to pretend that she isn't real and she will go away."  Within a couple of weeks she had found a new job.  The other girl, who was kind of second bully to the previous disappeared from the department as well.  The second girl, who was somewhat of a back up bully to the previous girl also disappeared from the department.

I got my wish but the unintended consequences have caused me to feel actual grief as because of the evening hours I work, I basically live alone.  In time, I must expect things will change for to live this way too long will force me to make a move onto something else.  All along, I have been seeking other employment but nothing has come through the pipeline as yet. 

If I had the power to alter the horribly unpleasant situation at work as I did; and as I truly believe that I can create, manipulate and alter this waking dream we call life then I must be able to paint a new, brighter and happier picture.  I will be with my family and my church again.  My spiritual quest will continue renewed.