Hole In My Heart

Today as I was sitting in church, I started to feel a hole in my heart.  I have been feeling it frequently.  My job took my family away.  The hole literally feels like a ripped open space; it is gray in color and pulls down on my chest and throat.  The hole must have its own gravitational field as it is very effective at pulling tears from my eyes.

I noticed at the back of the pew there were some blank sheets of paper marked "notes".  I took one in hand a proceeded to write a poem about the hole my heart.  The despair I feel is

1. A lack of faith
2. Overindulgence in selfish despair
3. Self-perpetuating

I left the poem there and asked whomever might discover it to please destroy it so that the hole in my heart might be filled by its wasting.

Let my faith be restored by strength!